Fake The Date

Okay, so I think I finally figured this shit out.
Yes it took me a whole quarter of a century to realize that in order to win in the dating game you have to be totally fake. I guess I’m just getting this because I’ve never been a fake person in this lifetime. I always tend to keep it a hundred percent real with whomever I’m dating. But as you can see, that shit does not work at all.
So you’re gonna have to lie, cheat, and act your ass off in order to come out on top (figurative and literately).

Here are some pointers…
• No matter how much you like the person, act like you don’t give two fucks about their existence. The suspense alone will keep them around.
• Always date other people, no matter what. Gotta keep those options open.
• Never express how much you like/care for/adore the person you’re dating. Playing hard to get is what’s popping in these streets.
• Don’t ever give up any information. Everything should be on a 'need to know' basis.
• When they text/BBM you wait at least a half hour to respond.
If they call you, don’t answer. But don’t worry, they will call you again (but be careful not to over do it. The person will give up if it’s been over two weeks of no answer).

There are more rules to this but the game is to be sold not told, so do your own research.

Even with all this fake shit going around, I don’t think I can partake in this foolery.
I’m really not ‘bout that fake life.
So I guess my real ass is gonna remain dolo.
One day someone will appreciate it *shrug*.

When I started this blog I was sooo pro-love.
But to be totally honest, I don’t believe true love exist anymore.
In this new society it’s not acceptable to be with one person.
I (personally) do not know one couple that has been faithful in their relationship. The shit could’ve been two months or two years, somebody cheated.
So please spear me with the 'Real Love Does Exist' bullshit.

Just fuck and be merry…..Oh yeah, & wear a condom!

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Run....

I’m ready to run.
Ready to run from all feelings.
From all emotions that’s attached to him.
Only because it does not feel recuperated.
So I’m afraid.
Petrified to be left standing on a cliff alone.
Without him to catch me.
To be my assurance that I’m not the only one in this.
But I fear rejection.
So I’m running.
Running back to what I know.
Loneliness.
Where there is no pain from possible heartache.
I rather put on a front like I don’t care.
Act nonchalant about how I feel when he wraps his arms around me.
Or how the pure sound of his heartbeat puts my mind at ease.
And his eyes.
His eyes tells a story that even if it was only told in braille, I would learn how to read it.

Maybe if I remain patient and hope.
But hope is not good enough.
My pride wants me to run.
Because my mind is tired of wondering.
And in the real world....there are no happy endings.


Gone....

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2010....

What an interesting year for me.
Despite the few moments of depression that I had to overcome, 2010 was a great year.
I took chances I would have NEVER taken.
Lost my job, which lead me to finally pursue my passion.
I met a lot of cool ass people.
Found a new love for photography.
Had my first ‘tour life’ experience.
But what really made my year, is that I found a part of myself that I never knew existed.

I feel free.

I love the fact that I’m going into the New Year with this positive, loving, and open outlook towards life. A far fetch for someone who use to be stand-offish and shy. I grew this confidence and patience that surprised the shit out of me. I guess that’s what happens when you learn to completely love yourself.

In 2011 I wish everyone a prosperous year. Live out your dreams and don’t let anyone or anything hold you back. I know it’s the most cliché thing to say, but it’s the truth. The only person that can hold you back is yourself.
So much can change within days, hours, minutes…
So have faith in God.....He won’t lead you wrong.

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